Here is how I feel about the moment, I have two beautiful, gorgeous, amazing sons and a fantastic, loving fiance and yet I feel like I am failing. I feel like I am losing myself in the cloud that is life and that my days are just passing me by. I feel like it wasn’t long ago that I had a tiny baby Ky and yet he is soon to be 6! And my mini baby J is soon to be 2! Where does the time go?
Tonight I have been sitting and looking at old photographs of myself and it really saddened me to see how I had changed. I know I have put on weight and it is something I am trying to shift but I really need to keep motivated with eating the right things and going to the gym.
I have now started Fly Lady which is helping me to take control of my house and my ‘clutter’ the dramatic change in my house in the last 2 months is huge. As well as my organisation which is slowly improving although I really need to use my diary and calender more! I have even been printing some ‘Pinteresting’ things so I have some lovely quotes on my wall. 2 of my favourite’s being
‘There is beauty all around when there is love at home’
‘Never do tomorrow things that you could do today, Procrastination is a time-thief’
I am 9.6 stone and I have 1 stone to lose as well as toning my poor abandoned body. I also aim on getting myself back to where I was when I cared more about my hair and putting my make up on and looking presentable in the mornings. As they say, no one can truly love you until you love yourself. I am starting to use timers to stop me procrastinating so much because I so desperately need to improve my time management.
We are going to have lots more family outings like we had this weekend. I am going to get my creative back out with my making and baking things and most of all I am going to get me back.
I am also going to be more accepting and positive of me and our achievements. We had Ky when we were young and he couldn’t make me more proud. The Male is my absolute life, he absolutely is the owner of my heart and this weekend we are celebrating our 8th year together <3
So here I am drawing a line here, enough it enough. I am not failing, I am living and it is going to be a life and a me I am proud of.
I have a mission, a life changing mission. A family fun, weight losing, body toning, getting organised, saving money kinda mission. Will you hold my hand and join me?